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| Xanga has some sort of an appeal to me. it is always drawing me here to read my past entries. it is quite surprising revisiting my 7th grade self, evaluating how i wrote, spoke, and felt, but of course, it is entertaining.
As i read over these long entries, I wondered what could have possessed me to write such things. haha. It was such a drag for me to read them today, and I wonder how others could have done the same; they were profuse in such meticulous detail. But then again, it was free-writing. Those entries belonged to an eager child who wrote for release from her life and for the enjoyment of others. I remember I used to count the number of props I received on each entry and come back the next day or so with the goal to increase that number. How silly of me!
Various names, nouns, verbs, adjectives, and adverbs filled each day. Today, if I were to write an entry on the happenings of each day, those names, nouns, verbs, adjectives, and adverbs would scarcely be present, unless they were used in a nonchalant manner. This makes me sad, seeing how the people I once were close with now seem like figments of my memory. Old pictures are unfamiliar to me. Well, the past is the past, and it is always good to look back and reminisce once in a while...
Well, this entry is not going to simply include my deep thoughts. Ha! As a quick update on how this year is progressing, after this senior year, I will be attending the University of Pennsylvania, College of Arts and Sciences. I was internally debating whether or not I should give Penn up for USP, the college my parents were rooting for me to pick. Indeed, being a pharmacist offers great financial prospects; however, I rather not wake up every morning to be greeted by a cold, white counter. And for God sakes, when do they sit?! So, I will enter Penn as an undecided student. It is not a position which I enjoy being in, but I really have no clue as to what to major in. Hopefully, this liberal arts program will show me a path. I am very excited, though, to start a new chapter in my life.
I have been busying myself with essays every single week. Dr. Hall has taken over my life, both my social and academic life that is. Also, with the dozens of scholarships that are due soon, I really have no time for dilly-dallying. Senioritis has affected me, but only little. It is funny how, though senior year is supposed to be the year when everyone relaxes, I observe students desperately trying to bring up their GPAs. I think it is sort of a lost cause. People finally realize their past mistakes, and now they seek redemption. Your plan would work, if everyone followed the social norm, but this is Central High School. Everyone else shares the same mindset, and so, with all this hard work that you finally put in, it is not to advance you, but to actually keep you where you currently stand. Realization people.
My 18th birthday recently past, but it did not feel as auspicious as others make it out to be. Perhaps the reason why everyone gets excited over it is because the people around them make it a very special day. For all the friends that I am supposed to have, I feel this must be a joke. Maybe they're not those kinds of friends. The whole day just seemed so very awkward and silly. The scattered "Happy birthdays," most said half-heartedly did not fill the unexpected emptiness of February 11, 2008.
Knowing what my readers like, I am sure they would be quite interested in my love life. Well, I will satiate your hunger and curiosity as of now. I have been together with Jin for about 17 months now. I prefer not to get too personal; it's better left in a private entry. But what I will say is that I cannot imagine life without him. I would not be the person I am today were it not for his unwavering love. Certain people may view this as a good thing, others as bad. I really don't give a care. This is a person who has always been there when days felt void and worthless. No matter how big this hole, he is always able to fill it, and for this, I can't express my appreciation enough except in my reciprocation of love. I love you! *cheesy moment*
Ahhh, this entry really needs to end. I should be writing those 1,000,000, scholarship essays, but writer's block is such a terrible obstacle. This entry only took about an hour to write, though it felt like minutes. Moreover, it's way longer than 500 words, the required amount for these essays yet they take weeks. Perhaps this will serve as my inspiration.
Do not expect me to be a stranger to Xanga. I will make sure of this. Someday, I will read this entry over. I wonder what my response will be then...
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| Well, due to kwok's nagging, I have decided to write a xanga entry. It's been so long that I don't really know what to write. Summer is extra boring. So far, the past 3 summers have consisted of working for my parents and volunteering at one place or another. My summer holidays have all been uneventful. I thought one's summer is for one to enjoy after a hard and arduous year of school. I guess "fun" doesn't fit in my schedule. Enough with my ranting, on to happier things.
I really need to go shopping! haha. But, of course, that enjoyment requires money, which is something I am saving now. Junior year, I went crazy on my spendings. It made me so depressed to see the reduction in the number of bills that I had. Therefore, this year, I won't be as careless with my money.
I also really need to go to the beach! It is a must this summer! I even bought a new swimsuit, so someone please take me! lol. I really need to hang with my friends, DOODS! The Simpsons movie came out today. We should go see it! =]
My tennis has improved greatly, I think. I've only been hitting with boys which contributed to my advancements. Tennis "Boot Camp" is coming up, so that means more tennis resulting in me getting darker, as if i wasn't tan enough. lol.
Grrs. This Stones from the River is taking me forever to read. I've already finished 1 of the 3. My slow pace is somewhat due to my sudden addiction to a Chinese series that I'm watching, Triumph in the Skies. It's so romantic and cute!
Ayys, Jin just came back from his 5 week vacation to China, and now he is starting his Penn Pre-Freshman Program tomorrow. Yes, this summer really sucks. Like, it majorly blows. Kwok, have fun reading this.
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| i have such a disdain towards school.
Pre-Calc*- 94 (96** stupid fatass)
Genetics- 100
AP US History- 91 (asshole)
English 3- 94 (biatch)
Health- 95
PE- 91 (so unlucky)
Physics- 90
my teachers just want to screw me over. btw, i hate choir. | | |
| due to my upcoming birthday, people have made me update in order for me to put up my "wish list" so be satisified: 1. camera- hrms possibly 2. new sneaks- chyea i need. lol. white air forces in mind or white shell tops with black stripes on side 3. dream angels heavenly victoria's secret perfume
4. hollister hoodies
5. belts?
6. a nice puzzle thats 1000 pieces or more i dun expect u guys to follow this list strictly, therefore, it really isnt important what u buy as long u come to my shindig. | | |
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